- Date: February 20, 2021
- Categories: Writing
By: Emily Radcliffe
Date: 2021
Reaching a point past redemption.
Being unwanted, unlovable.
Rejection from God.
Being utterly alone. Without God.
Making a seemingly meaningless
Small
Inconspicuous
Decision that ends up ruining my existence.
A bad ending.
Being wrong about everything I think I know to be true.
Making a catastrophic decision that I can never undo.
Spending my life and eternal life alone.
Becoming a negative person that repels the company and affection of others.
Losing once-in-a-lifetime opportunities.
Not taking the leap when I should have.
Letting life pass me by without impact and meaning.
Saying “yes” when I should’ve said “no”
Pressing “stop” when I should’ve kept going.
To open up my heart to someone just for them to leave me.
To be unseen.
Misinterpreted.
Unheard.
Misjudged.
Left behind.
Becoming someone I don’t want to be.
Being an embarrassment.
A joke that isn’t funny.
Hurting people I truly love.
Hurting people that won’t hurt me.
Ruining good relationships.
Getting hurt again.
Seeing everyone surpass me in life while I stay stuck.
Being detested for something i am unaware of or cannot change about myself.
To be unoriginal.
Indistinguishable from the rest.
Losing someone who was “the one”.
The consequences of not knowing what I don’t know that I should know.
Of my fear itself.
How far it’ll drive me.
How much more it’ll haunt me.
What else is there to fear?